Sunday, September 18, 2011

How Do I Feel About Being Old?

That title interested me when I received it in an e-mail.  It is by the fellow Anonymous  at least that is all I could find..Very interesting read.
How Do I Feel About Being Old?

The other day a young person asked me how I felt about being old.. I was taken aback, for I do not think of myself as old.  Upon seeing my reaction, she was immediately embarrassed, but I explained that it was an interesting question and  I would ponder it and let her know.
Old age, I decided, is a gift.  I am now, probably for the first time in my life, the person I have always wanted to be.. Oh, not my body!   I sometimes despair over my body..but I don't agonize over it for long.
I would  never trade my amazing friends, my wonderful life, my loving family for less gray hair, or more of it, or a flatter belly.  As I've aged, I've become more kind to myself and less critical of myself.   I've become my own friend.  I don't chide myself for eating that extra cookie or for not making my bed, or for buying that silly cement gecko that I didn't need but looks so avante garde on my patio.  
I am entitled  to overeat, to be messy, to be extravagant.  I have seen too many dear friends leave this world too soon, before they understood the great freedom that comes with aging.
Whose business is it if I choose to read until 4 AM and sleep until noon?  I will dance with myself to those wonderful tunes of the 50's and 60's and if I at the same time wish to recall some young loves I had along the way, I will.   I know I am sometimes forgetful.  But there again, some of life is just as well forgotten and I eventually remember the important things.  Sure, over the years my heart has been broken.  How can your heart not break when you lose a loved one or when a child suffers?  But broken hearts are what gives us strength and understanding and compassion.    A heart never broken is pristine and sterile and will never know the joy of being imperfect.
I am  so blessed to have lived long enough to have my hair turn gray and to have my youthful laughs be forever etched into deep grooves on my face.   So many have never laughed and so many have died before their hair could turn silver..  I can say "no" and mean it.  I can say "yes" and mean it.
As you get older, it is easier to be positive.  You care less  about what other people think.  I don't question myself anymore.  I've even earned the right to be wrong.
So, to answer the question, I like being old.  It has set me free.   Though others may not, I like the person I have become.  I am not going to live forever, but while I am still here, I will not waste time lamenting  what could have been or worrying about what will be.    For the first time in my life, I don't have to have a reason to do the things I want to do.  If I want to play games on the computer all day, lay on the couch and watch old movies for hours  or don't want to go to the beach or a movie, I have earned that right.  I have put in my time doing everything for others so now I can be a bit selfish without feeling guilty.
I sometimes feel sorry for the young.  They face a far different world than I knew growing up, where we feared the law, respected the old, never blamed our parents for what we became, loved the flag and cherished our country...But, they too will grow old someday.
I am so grateful to have been born when I was, into a kinder, gentler world.......Yes, I like being old!

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I wish I could have found the author of the above article.   This says it like it is.. To that anonymous writer, thank you  from so many.  You should have your name on that wonderful article.